Transitions back from the first

    2003-11-26/7:45 p.m.

    Basically I'm being lazy and not updating becuase I don't want to have to share what I'm thinking and how I'm feeling.  Seriously... what is there to share??  I don't feel anything new and this is a problem because it means I'm not growing or developing in the way that I should be.  Meaning that because I'm not trying I'm not getting passed feelings that I know I should be getting passed.  Things that I should get over because it's  not worth worrying about.  I can't spend all my time thinking about the stuff that I'm thinking about, I just can't afford to because of the amount of time it takes up.  I could be studying or something along those lines, something productive.
Today I went and talked to Madame.  Have I told you recently that I love that woman??  She's this amazing guide for like everything.  I can't tell you what I think when I see her smiling face and when I think about what she's doing.  I mean she's just so awesome to talk to.  I walked into her house and we sat down to talk and it was like I was her friend, not an ex-student.  It was the most amazing feeling ever.  She helped me with some of my problems (some of which I know how to rememdy) and she helped me realize that it's ok to be doing what I'm doing, I just need to be ok with growing out of it.  It's all about the transition I went through.  Transitions aren't as bad as I think they are, but I have to move on from the transition stage and get back to the 'i'm fine just being me' stage.  When I reach that stage nothing is going to matter anymore because I'll finally be comfortable again with who I am.  
I think that's all for now.  I have to go get ready to meet everyone for the movie.  YEH!!!  I love you all!
~Kates
Lost in the darkness,
Silence surrounds you.
Once there was morning,
Now endless night.
If I could reach you,
I'd guide you and teach you
To walk from the darkness
Back into the light
-Lost In The Darkness
"Jekyll and Hyde"

    
    
    

    


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